The Journal of Sakurakoji Yuki

I must say, I really do not like muggle technology. At all. But I suppose Magic is what wins in the end.

I am very amazed how there seems to be a kind of "truce". I wonder how long it will last. Sometimes it is amazing how a mutual enemy can sometimes throw people together. I think, I don't want to go back to fighting any time soon. But we'll see how otousama- But I do think that our community should maintain peace and stay united against this enemy. We can duke it out later. The Muggleborns can just- I really am done with this school year.

[Private to Akasora-senpai and Abeno-senpai]

Thank you very much.

[Handwriting is a little less neat than usual]
[Private to Akasora-senpai]

Senpai, where did you go? Are you even on your journal?

[Private to Abeno-senpai]

Senpai... are you on your journal?

To the person who thought it was really funny to forge Bu-kun's name on Valentine's Day, that wasn't funny. I mean I just found out my childhood hero and ancestor was that way with Abeno-senpai's ancestor


[Private to A3]

I think... I may have to go home for a couple days. I'm not yet done with the journal but I already have several questions

I'm going to tell Hoshino-sensei that my grandmother is seeking my presence at home. I think I will leave tomorrow and I'll try to be back Monday. Please take notes for me.

Wait... how did I suddenly get signed up for the Love Contest thing? I took her on ONE DATE Toki, you took your eyes off Natsumi for one moment, didn't you?

By the way, Happy Birthday Toki. I hope you enjoy the no doubt many books you will recieve throughout the day.

I am actually looking forward to judging the Cooking Club contest. I hope there is a lot of choco Thank you for having me.

And so it begins. Everyone is scrambling around for Valentine's Day. I love the day for the chocolate but because of an unfortunate accident that happened in my 4th year, I've been dealing with candy that comes my way under strict scrutiny. And these Valentine's Day events? I highly suspect were mostly Abeno-senpai's doing.

I finished the Black Forest Cake I got. That last slice made me feel a little woozy though.

[Private to Taka-senpai]

Senpai, may I ask you a question?

[Private to Toki]

What do you desire for your birthday?

Magical rifles? That sounds very painful, especially if the magic involved is a torture spell. How could muggles even use it? They had to be traitors. I would like to think so. It was like that book okaasan read to me the creature with the ring. You give power to those who cannot handle it or cannot understand it, you can be certain they would use it in such horrific ways.

I know some people may say the law is harsh in South Korea, but you can see their point. After so much trouble that has come from the north, it is safe to assume that anyone who comes from the north is more likely to be affiliated. Smugglers or not, rescue mission or not, a few nights in jail is worth the safety of the South Koreans, isn't it?

Okaasan sent me a picture of Haruki. He somehow got ahold of otousama's kohei and was waving it around, lighting part of a book on fire. If that were me, I would have been severely punished for that. I hope otousama realizes Haruki is only a baby. He's so happy, Haru-kun that is. Okaasan says he still rarely cries and is curious about everything. I'm thinking future Amaterasu.

It was a good thing there were no riots on Tuesday because of the Loyalty Oath. That would have made the situation that much worse. We need to maintain a united magical front and find ways to overcome traitors. Drastic times, ne?

Kissing Disease. What a stupid name. And false. I think I'm dying.

[Private to Akasora-senpai]

Pardon me, senpai, but I don't think I will make Aikido practice today.

[Private to A3]

Maybe I should give Shinobu's gift early

What are we planning for Bu-kun?

Today feels somewhat onimous for some reason. I could just becoming paranoid in my old age.

Obaasama sent me a sweater she made. It is so soft. I wonder what it is made out of. It's a little big though but I can slip my hands in the sleeves if it gets chilly out. She said I'll grow into it even though I haven't grown any since Obaasama is truly amazing. She was helping with the loyalty oath and made me a sweater. I wonder if she had a vision that day too? Of course she tells me she's only had two visions in her life. The rest were either too vague to be actual visions or were aided by other methods.

I have a personalized chart due tomorrow in Divination. I'm going to lie on when my birthday is. That is the last thing I need for it to fall into the wrong hands.

It's kind of funny... for being in a family that focuses so much on Divination and knowing my destiny since birth, doesn't make things any clearer.

I wonder how Ishida-sensei will know our acne potions will work. Dare I ask for volunteers?

[Private]

Happy Birthday to me. Well, Yuki-san. You are 17. You are officially an adult.

But I feel kind of depressed. I kind of just want to run away.

I desparately want someone to talk to. But who can I really talk to about this? Why must everyone strip any bit of power I have? Nakashima has taken away my power more than once over me and my body and the power that came with my reputation. Otousama took away my life. Even I couldn't control when I had my vision. Bu-kun is always trying to undermind me. He can criticize me all he wants but of course nothing is wrong with dating a mudblood.

Can I once just make a decision that doesn't bite me in the ass or one that I can make on my own voalition?

The tides are turning in my family's favor. I should feel happy. But in the end I feel like a child. A pawn in otousama's agenda. He's going to succeed too if my prophecy's right. But help comes. Where will it come from? And when it does come. Where does that leave me? Where does that leave Haruki? I don't know what tricks Otousama has up his sleeve but I know of some yokai you can establish contracts with by the life of a baby. What will happen to okaasan? She underminds him. She's useful because of obaasama. I'm pretty sure that is the only reason. I... am very unhappy with Otousama. No, I'm angry at him. I'm very angry at him. Maybe this is just some sort of strange teenage rebellion I'm going through.

Maybe I can be like Toki and just accept my fate. But I can't just do that. I need to be holding on. To be powerless is like slipping and drowning in a whirlpool to me.

I'm so angry and upset. I want to punch something. I want to scream. I want to run away. But that I can't do. I have to be the proper young master. I have to behave. That is the last thing I need. To take it out on a younger year and get expelled. Well, what use will I have then to Otousama? Might as well sacrifice me for a contract and raise Haruki as the new heir, start over and all that. Then Haruki can be raised to be just as lonely and hatefilled as me.

Even though I have not grown in height since last year, I feel I grew into something. I feel my branches are spreading out into directions I don't know yet.

I'm very confused on top of angry. I'm also scared.

Okay, Yuki-san. Time to put on your face of confidence. Emotions are a weakness anyways.

I wish I had the honor of helping with the school wards. And please stop linking me to Nakashima. I've washed my hands of the whole situation after last semester ended. It is a new year, a new semester, a new Sakurakoji Yuki. I really wished she were killed

Hot cocoa is the best in this weather. I started carrying a thermos of it because when I'm not drinking it, it keeps my hands warm from when I move between buildings. Okaasan gave me some very lovely tasting packets. It's a whole package of chocolate from around the world. Right now, I'm drinking "Swiss velvet".

I really hope that the individuals that chose to have tattoos did so because of their own judgement or lack of and didn't join the yakuza. Ayashii~

[Private to A3]

I had my first real vision.


[Private]

A white blossom closes... white lotus reference. I don't know who the bees are. But the last line indicates not really a victory. Well, it could. Help could come to the White Lotus.

The White Lotus is perhaps moving too fast. There should have been other assassinations... hopefully not using my life as a bargaining chip, but still. Hayashi would probably be a good start

I wonder what otousama would do if he knew. No, he won't know. He'll treat me like a prodigy and work me harder. I felt kinda sickish afterwards.

Well, it is good to be back to school. One more semester left before I become a 7th year. I wonder who will be made RA.

Wow, it is good to see a Yamada back into the political scene rather than just keeping to the back like usual. As for Ariake-san, I hope he reconsiders careers.

With what has been going on in the world, I hope people understand what a dire position we're in. I wonder if what happened in Korea would have happened if they did have something like an oath. I guess we shall learn from mistakes of other people.

It was snowing in Kyoto when I left. There is something magical about when it snows back home. The cherry trees that surround my house gain something of a new coat after a storm. I brought Haruki outside to see the snow but I think he's still too young to appreciate it. Besides, his name is "Clear-up" and "Radiance" so perhaps he cannot understand the snow like I do.

I hope everyone dreamed of eggplants, hawks, and Fuji-san. I was finally able to have a day off from studying today but I think I will study anyway. Isn't what you do the first day supposed to reflect the entire year? I will definitely join in the festivities tomorrow.

[Private]

What a depressing dream.

I was wearing a summer yukata in the middle of a snowstorm. I had been abandoned and decided to succumb to the cold around me. I sat in front of a frozen lake and I could see my own reflection. Snow clinged to my hair. My lips were blue. I idly draw my name in the snow. Then, a masked owl lands on the kanji and hoots me a haiku:

A little boy lost
In the meaning of his name
Destiny awaits

The owl grew into the human form, a shikigami. He offered his hand. I sort of understood I can succumb to the feeling of falling asleep due to hypothermia, rather peacefully too, or I could go with him. I took his hand, mostly because I saw the shadow of wolves or dogs approaching in the snow. I felt warm as soon as he touched my hand.

I woke up. I heard something fly away outside my window. It would have been odd if it were an owl.

New Years is rapidly approaching. Some say the dream you have on the 1st of the year has prophetic qualities. I am willing to interprete anyone's dream to anyone who asks. Just let me know.

I've been very busy over the last week. Okaasan has had many orders for yearly readings. She looks so tired recently. She must be working so hard. She's lucky that Haruki is not a fussy baby or I bet she'd be even more tired. Otousama has not been around recently so I've been doing a lot of self-study. I even had to do some when I visited Toki. I am promised to be involved in some type of ritual over the New Year starting tomorrow. Hopefully I will be able to enjoy the festivities on the 2nd.

I hope everyone is having a nice break and I look forward for the next semester. I believe 2010 will be a wonderful year.

[Private to Na-san]

Na-san, if I may be forward, why was I escorted from your party?

Negibozu is finally finished. I'm done with this punishment thank you very much.

Hayashi-sensei has something against me. An EE? I beg to differ. Good job, Toki. I was highly impressed. You may have to give me some pointers. If it wasn't wand waving, I would be okay. Western wands are truly inferior.

Vacation is about to start. I am looking forward to see how much Haruki has grown since I last saw him. And also how my mother is. Then there is also training and New Year's Celebration. We tend to be very busy this time of year.

I wonder what my dream will be.

I'm honored that otousama has been asked to help out with the barriers around the school. He said he'd show me some things while I'm here. It is worth the extra work on top of finals. I believe I can handle the extra work though. I have been saddling a lot this semester after all. But it has made me a stronger person, I believe.

[Private to A3]

Are any of you going to Na's party?

So let's see if Taka-senpai was correct

I'm feeling generous today and I also feel like I have not practiced my calligraphy or my automatic writing in a while.

Ask me a question and I will do a kanji or two for you.

If you are a mudblood I will skip

Please, just leave me alone. I'm done.

[Private to Akasora-senpai]

Senpai, why did I get punished again?! I was acting in self-defense! This is completely unfair. I didn't hurt him in any way. He HEXED me from behind. I didn't do ANYTHING to him and then he tried to hit me! What was I supposed to do!? I am sick of being punched! Shintani is lying. I did nothing. I swear on my mother's life.

You told me to not take matters in my own hands. I went straight to you after it. I only binded him because he would have hurt me. I don't want that to happen again.

I'm trying to be good after what I did to Ootomo and Nakashima but if I continue to be punished like this for something I didn't do then it makes being good a bit harder.

I think I will continue to take aikido even though it fully exhausts me Sound in body, sound in mind after all.

It is amazing how snow manages to bring out the child in us all. I'm surprised the kanji for Snow doesn't have child within it. However, I do find getting caught of the cross-fire of snowballs very troubling.

My favorite snowtime activity is catching snowflakes on your tounge.

[Private to Bu-kun]

I have weakened Ootomo for you. Your welcome.

[Private to Self]

That victory was not as sweet as I thought it would be. I think I'm finally bored of this game.

Still, it did go mostly according to plan.

I'm a little frustrated though. I feel unsettled. I don't know why. Would I be able to handle seeing her kiss him?

[Private to Kendo Club and Martial Arts Club]
Can anyone spare sometime to teach me some basics?

[Private to Akasora-senpai]

Senpai, may I ask you for a big favor?

[Private to Abeno-senpai]

I have
Can
What
What do you

Senpai, what did you think of white chocolate Matsudaira-sama's wake?

[Private to Misato-senpai]

Senpai, we have not had lunch in a while if you can dislodge yourself from that parasite Tachibana you have time maybe we can?

I think it is time I learn a martial art besides kyuudo.

Ah the snow is so lovely on a clear night. Of course I'm a bit partial because it is my name.

I see people have gotten their hands on the loyalty oath law. Good for them. Maybe people will stop running around like chickens with their head cut off.


[Private]

What JUST happened? I should have WON.